Once, twice, half a dozen times?
I'm talking hurt big. I'm talking hurt like you felt your heart was going to be pulled from your chest or blasted into a million minuscule pieces.
Take a moment to think about this. Like go on, indulge me.
What happened? Did you see it coming? Did you play a part in the hurt? Did you swear never to do something in the future as a result of something in the present?
Chances are, whatever it was, however many times it has happened, it didn't feel great right?
Okay now let's talk about the little hurts. How many times have you been hurt a little?
Several times, a dozen or maybe even multiple?
I'm taking hurt small. I'm talking hurt like you felt disappointed, like you got down because of something that happened. You maybe felt uneasy, anxious, let down. Your body felt slumpy or heavy.
Take a moment to think about this. Please play along with me.
What happened? Did you see it coming? Did you play a part in the hurt? Did you understand that sometimes it's okay to hurt like this?
Chances are, whatever it was, however many times it happened, it didn't feel great right?
What if you got minusculely (I don't reckon that's even a word but let's play) hurt every single day? What if you hurt yourself day in day out, all day long?
That sounds stupid right? Why would you do that? I hear you say. Yet, we do, we actively hurt ourselves on a daily basis.
When we say yes when we mean no
When we pick at a wound (not physically but mentally)
When we compare ourselves to the people/world around us (Facebook, twitter, instagram)
When we pick a fight because we are used to it
When we say idiotic things to ourselves like; i'm not good/slim/healthy/smart enough (take your pick)
When we berate ourselves
When we think mean things about ourselves
When we act out our dissatisfaction with this compared life on the people around us
When we go in daily to jobs we hate
When we stay with a partner who is abusive and/or controlling
When we don't follow the rules we set for ourselves
When we don't stay on track with a goal that may well be out of date
When we don't look after ourselves as well as we could
When we stay small
Quite a few months ago I came to the realisation that I was hurting myself on quite a number of occasions daily. It was a variety of the above but mainly the whole Facebook comparison thing. I have talked about it before but I have been hearing from friends and clients recently that they still compare their worst day with others' fake (or potentially real) best life on the internet. I decided that what I didn't know wouldn't...couldn't then hurt me.
If you, like me, are sick to the back teeth (ha, haven't heard that one for ages) of being hurt then please take a note of how many times you actually do this to yourself daily and DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!!
That is all.
Love you, now go be awesome all by yourself and think about this post.