So I arrived back from Bali last Wednesday late evening. I felt more jet lagged on this trip than when I have previously travelled back from the U.K and this really surprised me…
Then came Saturday and I understood what had been going on. I got ill. Very ill. I was unwell all day and developed a fever by 10pm that evening.
I had been bitten by mosquitoes relentlessly in Bali (they must love Scottish blood) and I was really worried I had contracted something nasty. An instagram friend of mine came back with Dengue so naturally I was worried.
So when midnight came and my fever spiked, hubby and I called Healthline and they advised us to go to the Emergency room.
We were there for over 12 hours (a great lesson in patience) as I had blood cultures taken and all other kinds of samples taken (I won’t give you the gory details).
I then had 2 litres of fluids and was told I could go home or stay in hospital for the day as I was still pretty weak and looked just peachy…Nah actually, I was as ‘white as a sheet’ (my mother’s saying).
I opted for home and thought that this would all be over the next day. However, the next day came and not only was I nauseous from the antibiotics that they had put me on but I had a chronic headache as my body withdrew from my one-a-day coffee addiction.
In short, I felt like I had been thrown under a bus and that my head would at any minute explode!
So, why am I telling you all of this?Well, I once worked for a Not-For-Profit, which dealt with people living with blood cancers and conditions. One of the main topics I discussed (being a support person for these people) was fatigue and the change of pace when living with cancer.
Now, let me stress that my fatigue is nothing compared with their fatigue. I’m simply highlighting that when we get ill or tired, either through stress, illness or whatever, we often end up beating ourselves up.
We worry that we can’t do what we used to do.
I run my own business so in essence, I am the business. I have had to cancel clients and I have been lying in bed for days now. Not fun for someone who usually works out daily and has a ton of energy at her disposal.
So what can we learn from this?
When your body is stressed out and tired:
- Beat up your mind as well as your body
- Take on too much
- Run before you can walk
- Berate yourself
- Get angry
- Take it out on those around you
- Minimize it
- Feel you have to ‘get over it’
- Focus on it
- Feel disempowered by it
- Deny it
- Get hugs (as long as you're not infectious)
- Be gentle on yourself
- Conserve what energy you do have
- Little things at a time
- Rest & relax (as much as you can)
- Ask for support from friends & family
- Feel that the rest is needed (because in all honesty- it is)
- Feel empowered that you are taking care of yourself
- Nourish your body with proper food and fluids
- Use the time to read that stack of books that have been piling up by your bed
- Listen to a favourite album
We only get one body and yet most of us treat it so badly. The next time you get sick or stressed and your body is giving you the signals that it has had enough. Listen
Please enjoy this Balinese Sound Healing Meditation all the way from Bali.
I sat listening to this whilst getting the most amazing Ayurvedic Crown Head Massage...
I recently started a writing programme online with an amazing author SARK.She talks a lot about the inner wise self.The part of you who is 100% authentic, genuine, loving, caring and wants only the very best for you. Some people call it an inner guide, an inner knowing, your highest self.I call it intuition. Intuition has been my friend my whole life but it's only recently that I began to listen and trust her and what she said.I ignored her for so long and was basically tuned in only to my inner critic voice. The one who tells you all the things you'll never do, have or be and exactly why.SARK encourages us writers to tune into the loving voice rather than the critic. The critic will only serve to stop us. The inner wise self will motivate and indeed inspire us to find our authentic voice and write and indeed live from that wise place. It will actually encourage us to write and actively give us the momentum we need.My wish for you is to tune into it also.
It can be an amazing practice to make as part of your self-care practice. I'm on a self-care mission and if we all took the time for some self-care, we would nourish our roots and find what we need internally rather than always looking for it externally. We would have a solid foundation from which to move through our life from.Some of the things your inner wise self will just know:
If that doesn't sound exciting, I don't know what will!!
- How you can feel amazing in each and every moment
- How you can learn from your world.
- How you can nurture yourself best in each moment
- How you can deal with situations that maybe make you feel crappy
- How you can practice self-care
- How to find your strengths
- How to be an inspiration to those around you
- How to care for others
- How to make any dream, project or goal a reality
- How to play big
- How to love yourself
- How to shine brightly
- How to share your gifts and talents with the world
So each and every morning, post meditation, I now sit in complete quietness on my bright orange meditation cushion and ask my inner wise self just what I need to hear that day.It usually starts of laughing or smiling and then speaks so clearly to me that it makes me smile.The other week it told me "Shoot for the moon. Be bold. Play big. Be gentle." Another time it said "Allow the frozen parts of yourself to thaw...it's time." Well okay then. That day I wrote and played and felt amazing!! Rather than the 'inaction' I can sometimes feel when producing work and putting myself out there in the world, it produced action and conversations and great feelings all day long.So often times during the day I will simply check in and this usually means stopping what I am doing just for a moment and asking..."Inner Wise self (IWS) what do I need to know right now...how can you support me?" You could ask this before a meeting, a conversation, an action...It will tell you, intuition will, a gut feeling, a knowing, a voice, a feeling. One or more of these will show up and give you what you need just in that moment and if you don't receive anything then perhaps you are already acting from it and again you will know.Once you become present to this self, you will never feel alone again. It will always keep you company and have your back. It will forever push you to take the next right action. It will become a trusted guide and that my friends is the most amazing feeling there is!
Take Care and watch this space...I am off to Bali with my hubby for a vacation and a scouting mission...(I hear holding retreats in my future). I will be posting beautiful visual meditations so check back in.Yvonne xx
One beautiful morning, I woke up and truly appreciated my life. Not just the fact that I live in such a peaceful city near the water, but that every day I get to be me.
Unique, alive, caring, loving me!
Every day I grow more comfortable in my skin. I can breathe more deeply, feel more fully and share more abundantly with the world around me.
It wasn't always this way...
One horrible morning many years ago, I woke up with no awareness that my world as I knew it was about to completely change. The girl I was would leave me for such a long time. She would remain hidden away from the world, her head down, her light shut off.
Until very recently, I thought that I had sorted out my shit, dealt with the internal condition, laughed in the face of low self-esteem but it took me going on another learning journey to realise that the girl who had started to shine still had some serious flaws...
I was writing my book Beat Up To Beautiful: a journey to self-acceptance and I kept stopping. I went to lunch with my beautiful Yoga teacher Melissa (POWA centre- go google her as I'm writing from a mobile device and I don't yet know how to put in a link) anyway, here I was telling Melissa that I simply couldn't write my book because I clearly wasn't at the beautiful stage yet. She looked at me with her kind and oh so gentle face and spoke words that rocked my world so much that I had to get her to repeat what she said...
"Isn't stopping writing just another way of beating yourself up?"
"Couldn't part of being beautiful be that we sometimes beat ourselves up?"
So...she rocked my world and I wanted to share that no matter what you are doing right now, be it big, small, huge, grand, massive...keep doing it...don't beat yourself up that you're not in the perfect place...if we wait until we're in the perfect place, we might just wait forever....
1. You are feeling really muddled, confused, overwhelmed, fed up, stuck and you feel that you are never going to move ahead with your goals, dreams, wants for your future.
2. You really feel that life would be better if only you knew what you wanted out of it. You are unsure and have tried many times to make something happen only to fall short time after time.
3. You complain a lot.
4. You don't see how you will ever have something you can't even articulate yet you know SOMETHING needs to change.
5. You are sick of your own complaining.
6. You get jealous every single time you see someone around you beaming, successful, glowing, achieving and thriving.
7. You want to understand yourself better.
8. You want strategies to live a great life.
9. You secretly think nobody will ever feel how unproductive you feel at times, sometimes....ok...all the bloody time!
10. You want clarity, momentum, ideas, awareness...joy.
11. You want someone to be radically honest with you, support you, understand you, assist you, partner with you, champion for you and keep you accountable for the change you say you want...when you know what that is...