For the past few days I have been feeling off. You know how I know that I am off? All I want to do is hide away. All I want to do is sit in silence. Not bad for a mindfulness teacher right? Yet, it has been seeping into all of the spaces of my life. Time with my friends, time with my husband, even time spent alone...I just feel off my game, like I have been knocked gently off my path.
So I began today to come from a place of allowing rather than trying or wanting to get someplace else. Today I decided to welcome in even further the feeling of being off...
Instead of trying to be in a different place I simply looked up and allowed myself to be in this one, in this moment. Usually I am rather great at it...but like I said....I've been off....
So today I went with the flow, I actually felt like I was watching myself from a distance. I opened up to a friend about how I was feeling, someone who I haven't known for long but I knew she would understand...she did.
I accepted what came next...and next...and next.
It was one of the MOST productive days I have had in a couple of weeks. I got ready to launch my new ï»¿Monday Mindfulness Sitting group ï»¿(more info to come soon), I sent off questions to an author I am interviewing for my other work, I sent out a few invoices and I researched more about my line of work. I enjoyed each moment and just allowed it to be here until it wasn't anymore.
The day flowed perfectly and before I knew it I was doing my second workout of the day and then making dinner (yes, I workout twice a day...don't judge :)
So, I ask you now. Where in your life might you be trying so hard or wanting so much? How can you begin to allow rather than try so goddamn hard?
Often the best work and our best self comes forward when we are simply allowing.
Allow it and see xx